Hola!!
Damn I just can't think properly when it comes to this one issue I'm currently facing with. Just imagine this. One fine day, someone came up to u and say they like u. In a state of shocked + touched, all u could do was to smile sweetly and changed topic, completely shrugging off the idea. If you think it's over, next came the most intense moment. Haha. The person eventually confesses that they'll wait for u coz u are all they wanted and that they are so into you. Oh gosh! Sounds dramatic? It definitely is but it's also the reality I'm facing! Frankly, I've never experienced such a situation. I am exremely dumbfounded for real! God, why must everything happen so sudden?
So yeah, I've known N for a couple of months now. We've been out together for a couple of time too. Heck, we even act like we're really together with all these "dear" words being used to address each other. But, I never really thought she would want our friendship to move on that quick. I mean seriously, I don't feel I know her enough! Give me some time! It's not that I am not into her but all I want is for us to take small steps at a time. It seems like a rush! What, is this Gucci Rush perfume? OK NO LINK! Sorry but I'm really having a mixed feeling now. Sigh.
I hope she reads my post because all I'm asking for is more time! I don't know why we don't really touch on relationships issues when we're together but it's during those calls/chatting/smsing moments that sparks flew high. I never deny I was caught up with the mood but I really was only loving it while it lasts. Beyond that, I never even think of nothing! Now, I don't know what else to say. I never want to hurt her. Should I just get it going? I guess it's about time and this is such a rare opportunity to let go off but. . . BUTS & MORE BUTS!
Hurhur I'm stressed out! Oh yar! I just can't thank Farah enough for always being my side througout this difficult moment of mine. You are so inspirational and such a wonderful friend! I promise I'll treat you one day. Hehe!
On the positive note of all these, perhaps my prayers has finally been answered coz I have always asked one question. "Why am I on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone. . .?" Guess this may just be the moment. I am still undecided but ultimately I must decide. Tough as it is but life still has to go on, right? In life, choices doesn't come when we needed them badly. . .
P/S: . . . .you are my very first thought in the morning and the last one at night. . . .
Signing off,
Niz
