Hey Hi!
WOAH, been more than a week since my last post. Hari raya, school & work really took up all my spare times. That's why I didn't get any chance to update. I'll be very sleepy by midnight/1am lately. I swear I am a night person but somehow everything changed. Oh wells. Some changes are great sometimes right? ;)
So how are u peeps hari raya? Mine was a blast! This is the first time in almost 6 years that I celebrated for a whole week long. No kidding. Me & mom was like wondering why the heck were we so in the mood to celebrate for? But of coz we believe, it's linked to our 'freedom'. Haha! Dang, I wish the moments never ended! I really do love this year's hari raya.
School is already in the second week now. Is that fast or what? The thougt of learning Marketing, Business Communications and Events Planning & Logistics really made me excited to start lessons. It was until lessons started, that my excitement fades instantly. It's all serious shits. As usual, too many facts to memorise and now, there are so many projects lined up to be completed and graded. Stress or what? Haiz. I don't know if u call it good luck but I think it's bad luck I got a GPA of 3.6 for my recent exam. Coz of that, I was made busier by being forced to attend courses/talks. Sheesh. It's not like I want to let opportunity slip from my fingers but I don't understand why many things always happen at the same time. How I wish I'm a robot. Even if I am, I think I'll malfunction sooner than u know. Haha!
As for my work, I'm sorta regretting my decision to work on weekends. I mean, I'm not like most people where they have free weekends and such. I always have things to do every single day of the week! So now, I so called have to sacrifice my weekends for work. To think I'm only paid at most $70 per week. It's not really worthit actually. Moreover, I don't feel quite belonged to Songs Of The Sea. It's not about not having friends. More of can't adapt to the job scope. Sometimes I feel like I'm making a fool of myself in public but to the management, we're doing a good job to portray a good image (of SENTOSA) to the tourists. Ironic eh? Whatever. I don't know how long I will last here but me being me, always enjoy the moments while it lasts. :)
Guess from now on, my life will be a little rocky. I don't know why at times I felt lost, anxious for no apparent reasons and so on. It's weird and it's so not Nizam. I miss myself. :( We'll see how things goes. So far, I've got no plans to make a drastic change. Have been and will continue to go with the flow for as long as I can. One thing for sure, I'm quite sick of being the middle person. I've been giving this 'service' for FOC since Primary 6, for god's sake! Am I that neutral a person? Sometimes I fear questions of trust may arise but I guess it's quite inevitable. I don't mind and I actually expect it everytime. Come what may, I still stand on my grounds. I know myself. Haha!
Anyways, I wouldn't be in school tomorrow as I need to accompany mom to the Syariah Court. This is the 2nd hearing. I hope my 'dad' comes tomorrow and have the matter settled once and for all. Divorce is the only option to settle everything ASAP. Just get it done and over with. If only I have the rights to do anything. Sigh. Oh yeah, u people have no idea how many people actually wished me and mom good luck in life while they curse my 'dad' non stop? Awesome eh? Haha! I'm positive this moment will last for a bit, especially after the divorce is official. Oh btw, I'm just sick and tired of hearing advice from people asking me to take good care of my mom. Come on, I know my responsibilities! Ceh! :P
I'll upload my hari raya photos somewhere. Once it's up, I'll post the link so u can view them. Meanwhile, if u want to view some photos, I have uploaded some @ my Friendster. :) Alrighty, till the next post. A bentiot and au revoir people! Go figure. :D
Signing off,
Niz
