Hooray! Yesterday, I finally booked out together with the rest of my Company. Hahahaha! I know it's not fair to them because they spent much more time in camp as compared to me but still, there's no valid reason to confine me, right? Hehe. :P So, ever since I went back to camp on Wednesday (after a week of MC), I've went through a lot. Apparently, the training is now at the progressing stage whereby a lot of things will be taught every single day and we just have to memorise them all.
Initially, I really really have a tough time to adapt because everything is new to me and I felt super duper lost but eventually, I managed to control the situation and went along with the rest. The bad side is, I'm still kinda reserved so I rarely ask around but I told myself that if I were to make it through BMT, I must keep on questioning and correcting what's wrong so that I won't suffer or make others suffer (if U know what I mean).
Now, my presence in camp is acknowledged by the whole Platoon and my Section espcially but, accepting wise, I think there's still a long way to go. I know they cannot accept me there because all along, I've either been away or bearing the status of "light duties only" so simply put, I still haven't suffer that much. In fact, up till today, I still haven't touched the rifle and many other stuffs so that's probably why everyone kinda treat me differently. While it's not really in my face, I still can feel it and my feelings are always true. Furthermore, I've heard a couple of sarcastic remarks from some really non-understanding people but I just brush it off. I mean, there's no point to take what they say to heart because I know myself better, right? Come what may, I'm just gonna face it all and think about myself first before anything...
Sometimes, I wish my luck is a little better but I strongly believe, there's a reason behind everything. Probably, this is just one of the test from God for me and HE knows I can still take it. I would be so kidding if I say I never feel like breaking down at any point of time but I can't afford to break down. I'd rather go on the tough way and receiving any kind of treatments rather than adding more burden for myself later on. Well, this is "MY" BMT life...
Regards,
REC Khairun
